Amazingly, you can connect better with a stranger you met for the first time than a person you have known for years.

    These past few days have been hard for me. Facing an event I don't even expect to face in my whole life, I still can't accept it. I want to scream until I run out of breath, to let out all my frustrations and sadness. Feeling like I'm giving the people close to me a hard time. Even when I have someone close to me, I don't feel like opening up to them. Better just keep it to myself, since all I do is just burden them more or not at all. Being an empath is great, but having no one to listen to you with the same empathy as you is hard. I want to tell her that I'm annoyed with her response, sad with her action and that she just doesn't understand me. But just telling her that I'm tired is exhausting, because she will never understand. 

    

    Even replying to messages in the family group chat is hard enough. It's giving me the anxiety I have always had when socializing. I'm tired of feeling this way, tired of being drained out of social energy after a long chat. Tired of being not focused on online classes. Having a hard time starting something and doing it till the end. All I do is procrastinate and worry but not do anything until the last moment. I'm exhausted but can't take a rest. All the rest I have taken is just draining my energy more than recharging it. I want to do something but can't bring myself to do it, maybe I'm just dead inside.